
As promised, here are my then-and-now photos. The photo on the left was taken in February 2008, the one on the right just today. And YES, I can finally see the difference! Obviously, I still have a long way to go, but it’s great to feel so much healthier and happier already. I climbed all the stairs by the Oceanside Pier today without even getting short of breath — while having a conversation! Click on the photo to see it larger on Flickr, along with a few of my favorites from today.
When I first downloaded the photos from the Nikon, I started crying. I honestly could not see any difference in myself at all. It took an hour of looking at photo after photo with Bret pointing out the differences before my mind began to accept it. When it began to sink in, I was shocked. I don’t look repulsive! I’m not even embarrassed to show people these photos! Usually I’d rather get a root canal than share pictures of myself. Because, you know, people don’t look at me when they’re standing right in front of me or anything. Ahem.
Bret tends to go a bit apeshit with the shutter release when he’s got the Nikon, and he actually took 375 pictures during our two hours at the beach today (seriously), but only about 100 of them are of me. Still, that’s a lot of images to sort through, even considering the many, many near-duplicates taken milliseconds apart. I’m not happy with the technical quality of today’s pics — most of them are hazy and my face is too shadowed. I did some adjusting, but couldn’t get much improvement. But they served their purpose, and that’s what counts.
Incidentally, these photos today and the few I uploaded a week ago are the first ones I’ve put on Flickr without digitally “touching myself up.” They are the true, unedited me, and that alone is a huge, huge step in my journey toward self-acceptance. I am proud of myself for taking it.