Pseudotherapy

Just in case you really *are* checking up on me … :dizzy:

Today is Day 7 since my last visit with you. If you read my previous post, you know I really took our discussion to heart. I’m not afraid of dying, but I HATE knowing I couldn’t run like hell in the event of attack by zombies. I would be the first to get eaten, and that upsets me. Plus, I have a deep phobia about being left in a vegetative state by a stroke. So I am serious as a heart attack about reclaiming my fitness before it’s too late.

As you commented, I am very much a person of absolutes. Yes or no, not maybe. Black or white, not gray. Things have to be this way or that way, nothing in between. Hence my decision to quit blogging completely. Once I saw that pie chart thing showing how much of my time was actually spent online I knew I had to make changes, and being me, I went straight to the extreme. NO blogging. NO reading blogs. This past weekend, I actually used a timer to limit my computer use. I’ve also made a real effort to re-open communications with my family members and pre-bloglife friends. And we did get out of the house some this weekend, shopping at actual stores instead of online. See? I’m working on it!

However, since it doesn’t matter what I’m doing on the computer as long as I stay within my daily time limit, I’ve decided not to shut down Pseudotherapy completely. One of my friends recommended occasional posting as an alternative to disappearing altogether, and another suggested challenging myself to write posts within a specific timeframe. That one might actually help me to become less obsessive about “perfecting” what I write, don’t you think? I’ll have to see how those work for me, and how successful I am at policing myself.

The bad news is I couldn’t bring myself to do the gym membership, but I did get an exercise DVD to try (I KNOW, no social interaction, but also no public humiliation). And! I have actually remembered to take the lovastatin for four straight days, woo hoo!!! I set the bottle in front of my monitor. :biggrin:

See you in October, Dr. B!

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