Breathe
I want to thank all of you who took time out of your day to post a supportive comment yesterday. You can’t even imagine how much they comforted me. The worst thing about the abyss is that you can’t see your friends in front of your face, and you feel utterly alone in your despair.? But when people care enough to express it in writing, that’s something you can hold onto. I’m sure I was my own #1 visitor yesterday because I kept coming back to read your words of encouragement and understanding. I love you all.
I AM better today. Not dramatically so, but enough that Bret can tell. He was scared yesterday, and called multiple times to check on me. During his lunch-hour call, I cried the entire time. When he called on his afternoon break, I was calm and hopeful. He expressed relief at my improvement, and I explained to him that I’d spent the last 30 minutes of my own lunch hour meditating. I wish I could make him understand how much that helps me when I remember to do it, but Bret just does not get it. If he sits for even 15 minutes focusing on his breathing, he falls asleep. It settles me. I like to say that it re-aligns my ch’i. Thank you, John, for reminding me of the benefit of being still.
Last night I slept. Gave myself the night off from the “5th” stuff and went to bed with a few good friends. No bad dreams starring Dr. Daveorkian. No bad dreams at all.
Today, although still sad, I am at least looking upward at the light above the well. I hope it’s friends with flashlights, not angry villagers with torches.
June 26th, 2008 at 9:03 am
It’s friends with flashlights. Absolutely.
Sending you lots of positive energy and wishes for much meditation time.
Love you FBMama…
suze’s last blog post: breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out?
June 26th, 2008 at 9:32 am
Hey, that’s why we’re here! We’re a giant e-Support Network. And you’d do the same for me. I know that!
kapgar’s last blog post: Exit light, enter night…
June 26th, 2008 at 9:54 am
I’m glad you’re feeling a bit better today. There is something wonderful about this support network we have here. I’m looking forward to your Blogiversary!
Geeky Tai-Tai’s last blog post: In Memoriam
June 26th, 2008 at 12:04 pm
*shining a friendly flash-light* :o)
Penelope’s last blog post: Maybe…just maybe.
June 26th, 2008 at 1:46 pm
{{{big hugs}}}
June 26th, 2008 at 6:36 pm
We’re like group therapy without the bill.
Except for the internet bill….
and the web host bill…
and the electricity bill…
Hrm, what ARE we good for?
Hilly’s last blog post: Hypocritical Hilly & Snarky Stewardesses
June 27th, 2008 at 6:35 am
Awww. Good for you Luv. Being still is good medicine, and I’m so glad it is having a calming effect on you. Your blogoversary is going to be wonderful. Can’t wait!
Have a wonderful weekend. : )
John’s last blog post: Learn To Be Still
June 27th, 2008 at 7:42 am
Suze: As always, thanks for being there. Love you too, FBdaughter!
Kevin: An e-Support Network! I like that. Badges, we need badges! And pocket protectors.
Diana: It really is amazing, isn’t it, how people come together in the blogging community? GREAT bunch of people here!
Penelope: I thought that was your blonde hair behind one of those lights!
ajooja: Backatcha, baby!
Hilly: At least you guys don’t charge by the hour (TWKS!)! Hahaha! Sorry, couldn’t resist.
John: Every day I get a little bit closer to feeling fine …